Maria - I like it loud

I am a person that usually talks a lot. A lot. I dont always have something important or brilliant to say, I just dont seem to be able to keep my mouth shut. It must be a flaw in my brain somewhere.

It has its good and bad sides. It gets me in trouble, just a week ago I ended up with a scary guy on a plane cause I was bored and didnt have anyone else to talk to. This guy made sure to create a facebook account and find me there. Normal? Dooooont think so. Anyway, if I would have kept my mouth shut, it wouldnt have happened.

In school Ive always been active and talked a lot. Every mid-semester talk with parents, 'shes brilliant, but she doesnt ever stop talking'. I should prolly think of a radio career. But then again, I also have a terrible voice, so no one would like to listen anyway.

There are a few moments when Im quiet though. Being tired is one. And then I dont mean superdupertired, cause I talk in my sleep if I am. But just a good level of tiredness, and Im all quiet. When Im really angry or sad I can also go all quiet. People that know me quite good usually manage to notice when Im upset over something even if I didnt say anything about it.

There is one major thing bothering me right now. I think its making me more quiet generally. Not that anyone but me notices, no one commented on it so far. There are just these small things that never ever leave the mind for a second, even if one isnt actively thinking about it. Its just back there, soaking its way in til it finds a way to reach the active mind again. Im thinking about it right now. And then I get sad and angry, so I hope it goes back to its little hiding place. Fast. Now. Go!

Its quite scary the effect music has on me, and Im sure on others. I was just feeling slightly worked up, I have a lot on my mind and it doesnt seem to matter what I do, it doesnt change. But then again, as I was telling Liam last night when we were talking, I am at peace with whats troubling me, but Im awaiting a certain red week and everything turns upside down.

But, back to the song.I dont know how many of you know who Juanes is, but he seemed to have saved my day right now. But dear lord what have I done to my speakers, it doesnt matter what I do, the bass is way too loud? Ah well. Aaaaanyway, Juanes has a song called Para tu amor, and it is absolutely beautiful and so relaxing. For thos of you with spotify, Id recommend you to click this http://open.spotify.com/track/7MRNLnUBeHO30nVMWe8c7U .

So now Im just sitting here listening to Juanes. Thinking about all the really good music I have just a few clicks away. But nah. This is perfect for now.

Its three weeks til I go to see Liam again. Spent a few fantastic days there last weekend, saw his friends and family and enjoyed the good weather. Ok. One day of good weather. And ok. It ended in loads of rain, but luckily we chose the right table to sit at. Never let a man drinking cider decide which table is the better one. Just a big tip.

And when I sit here, with my raspberry smoothie, Para tu amor, thinking of the weekend, it all comes over me. Im really not that bad off after all. Not really. Its all just pms.



And to come back with an update on the previous post. People who read it arent the ones that should have. But for those who did and commented, I do appreciate you took your time :)

Its nice to be important, but its more important to be nice.