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3/22/10
3:05 AM
Wikipedia on jealousy:
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust.
Jealousy is not something Im usually struck by, but the last week Ive had all satellites out searching and poor Liam had a very annoying girlfriend to handle. But instead of acting like an idiot im trying to tell him what Im thinking and why I think like that. Good or bad, wrong or right? Atleast it feels better to me if I explain myself to the poor guy that doesnt have a clue what Im on about.
Im guessing its just a matter of worrying of losing something that I really care about. After being in emotional limbo for quite a while, my life has all of a sudden balanced itself and everything seems pretty relaxing and fixed now. I have a job I really like, I have a lovely flat and a roommate I like, I have my friends and pets and I have my great boyfriend.
Now, if one of these parts would all of a sudden go away I think theres a risk I would get a bit lost again. The fact I happen to have a great looking boyfriend whos smart, funny and so kind, miiiight just be the reason to why I react the most to losing that, cause somehow it feels like its the most risky one. I dont trust people, people are mean and selfish! Or maybe its cause its the one thing thats out of my control? I wouldnt ever want to control a boyfriend, no matter how practical it would be ;) Its just not the person I am, but its also one of the things that make me wonder. In the end I do know he likes and cares for me. Just that slip of the mind everynow and then, isnt it? Dont we all have it?
Liam has shown me bigtime hes not planning on finding another mage (internal joke, and she plays fire... noob) so I think Im leaving my jealousy for show in this post and wont bring it up again. Until next time I get some freaky thought :)
To end this, yes I should be sleeping by now, but I had lentel soup with onion and garlic for dinner. My tummy is rearranging everything it can atm and I will ust have to suffer and watch The Big Bang Theory til it calms down!
Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over an anticipated loss of something that the person values, such as a relationship, friendship, or love. Jealousy often consists of a combination of emotions such as anger, sadness, and disgust.
Jealousy is not something Im usually struck by, but the last week Ive had all satellites out searching and poor Liam had a very annoying girlfriend to handle. But instead of acting like an idiot im trying to tell him what Im thinking and why I think like that. Good or bad, wrong or right? Atleast it feels better to me if I explain myself to the poor guy that doesnt have a clue what Im on about.
Im guessing its just a matter of worrying of losing something that I really care about. After being in emotional limbo for quite a while, my life has all of a sudden balanced itself and everything seems pretty relaxing and fixed now. I have a job I really like, I have a lovely flat and a roommate I like, I have my friends and pets and I have my great boyfriend.
Now, if one of these parts would all of a sudden go away I think theres a risk I would get a bit lost again. The fact I happen to have a great looking boyfriend whos smart, funny and so kind, miiiight just be the reason to why I react the most to losing that, cause somehow it feels like its the most risky one. I dont trust people, people are mean and selfish! Or maybe its cause its the one thing thats out of my control? I wouldnt ever want to control a boyfriend, no matter how practical it would be ;) Its just not the person I am, but its also one of the things that make me wonder. In the end I do know he likes and cares for me. Just that slip of the mind everynow and then, isnt it? Dont we all have it?
Liam has shown me bigtime hes not planning on finding another mage (internal joke, and she plays fire... noob) so I think Im leaving my jealousy for show in this post and wont bring it up again. Until next time I get some freaky thought :)
To end this, yes I should be sleeping by now, but I had lentel soup with onion and garlic for dinner. My tummy is rearranging everything it can atm and I will ust have to suffer and watch The Big Bang Theory til it calms down!
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1 comments:
I think it´s good that you explained your feelings for him. Even if he doesn´t understands them he knows what´s going around in little maria land :)
Hugz !!!
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