Maria - I like it loud

I am a person that usually talks a lot. A lot. I dont always have something important or brilliant to say, I just dont seem to be able to keep my mouth shut. It must be a flaw in my brain somewhere.

It has its good and bad sides. It gets me in trouble, just a week ago I ended up with a scary guy on a plane cause I was bored and didnt have anyone else to talk to. This guy made sure to create a facebook account and find me there. Normal? Dooooont think so. Anyway, if I would have kept my mouth shut, it wouldnt have happened.

In school Ive always been active and talked a lot. Every mid-semester talk with parents, 'shes brilliant, but she doesnt ever stop talking'. I should prolly think of a radio career. But then again, I also have a terrible voice, so no one would like to listen anyway.

There are a few moments when Im quiet though. Being tired is one. And then I dont mean superdupertired, cause I talk in my sleep if I am. But just a good level of tiredness, and Im all quiet. When Im really angry or sad I can also go all quiet. People that know me quite good usually manage to notice when Im upset over something even if I didnt say anything about it.

There is one major thing bothering me right now. I think its making me more quiet generally. Not that anyone but me notices, no one commented on it so far. There are just these small things that never ever leave the mind for a second, even if one isnt actively thinking about it. Its just back there, soaking its way in til it finds a way to reach the active mind again. Im thinking about it right now. And then I get sad and angry, so I hope it goes back to its little hiding place. Fast. Now. Go!